Mistrust Without A Cause
So there I was still mourning and adjusting to our new reality of cancer again, when I realized the debilitating anxiety I was feeling was not from God. Philippians 4:6-7 tells me to “Be anxious for nothing; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” I don’t have to live with worry-knots in my stomach because I trust God. And there has never been a time that He has failed of anything He has promised.
On that very day, the devotional that Dan read to me over dinner grabbed my attention and showed me the way back into God’s promised peace.
“And David said in his heart, I shall now perish one day by the hand of Saul.”-1 Samuel 27:1.
The thought of David’s heart at this time was a false thought, because he certainly had no ground for thinking that God’s anointing him by Samuel was intended to be left as an empty unmeaning act. On no one occasion had the Lord deserted His servant; he had been placed in perilous positions very often, but not one instance had occurred in which divine interposition had not delivered him. The trials to which he had been exposed had been varied; they had not assumed one form only, but many—yet in every case He who sent the trial had also graciously ordained a way of escape. David could not put his finger upon any entry in his diary, and say of it, “Here is evidence that the Lord will forsake me,” for the entire tenor of his past life proved the very reverse. He should have argued from what God had done for him, that God would be his defender still.
But is it not just in the same way that we doubt God’s help? Is it not mistrust without a cause? Have we ever had the shadow of a reason to doubt our Father’s goodness? Have not His lovingkindnesses been marvelous? Has He once failed to justify our trust?
Ah, no! Our God has not left us at any time. We have had dark nights, but the star of love has shone forth amid the blackness; we have been in stern conflicts, but over our head He has held aloft the shield of our defense. We have gone through many trials, but never to our detriment, always to our advantage; and the conclusion from our past experience is, that He who has been with us in six troubles, will not forsake us in the seventh. What we have known of our faithful God, proves that He will keep us to the end. Let us not, then, reason contrary to evidence. How can we ever be so ungenerous as to doubt our God? Lord, throw down the Jezebel of our unbelief, and let the dogs devour it. (from Charles Haddon Spurgeon, Morning and Evening Daily Readings [Zondervan: Grand Rapids, MI, 1967] p.582.)
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Prayer request: Please pray that God would keep us in the center of His peace as we move forward with Dan’s treatment soon. We are still dealing with diagnostics but we praise God that Dan’s Brain MRI revealed no lesions in his brain.
Carolyn
October 26, 2017 at 4:17 pmWe are continuing to pray for you both. Sending love, strength and the Lord’s peace for resolution of the diagnostics and clarity of plans for treatment going forward in the difficult days ahead.
Susan Merritt, PhD
October 26, 2017 at 10:11 pmThank you Carolyn.
Sarah
October 26, 2017 at 10:54 pmSusan, I’ve often told people that I’ve bragged on God and His works so many times and for so many years, that I don’t think He’s going to ruin His reputation now. He is ever faithful. Continuing to pray for Dan, and you too.
Susan Merritt, PhD
October 26, 2017 at 11:26 pmThank you Sarah. I so appreciate your taking the time to comment. I agree. God just outdoes Himself in His endless grace poured out on our lives!